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[February 08, 2010] |
Im thankful, that i managed to go through day after day, without breaking down.
Yes i did and am still going on to put a strong front in front of everyone.
Quoted, 'I am like a duck' Graceful & calm but am actually paddling very hard in the water, fighting for my dear life. I wouldnt want to ruin everyone's mood by being emo or whatsoever, instead im still able to stay positive and hilarious with friends. Unfortunately it can never be the same at home. At night, I begin to be overwhelmed by a wave of emotions, which struck me out of nowhere. Perhaps, i've been keeping everything in, in the day and letting it out at night.
What am i to do? Well, let me say this, im going to keep the faith, keep fighting for this love, cause anything that is worth having, sure enough it's worth fighting for. I never meant to start a war, i never meant to hurt you. But my love always feels like a battlefield to me. Dont wanna hurt anymore :(
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[February 07, 2010] |
BUT
there's always this phrase 'i can never love another', i'll end up getting hurt in the end.
Im still willing to wait for you
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| fight for this love <3 |
[February 07, 2010] |
The feeling is so surreal; holding your waist, having a shoulder to lie on when i wasnt feeling too good. Or is this feeling just occured, for the sake of it, for the sake of me being alone for too long? Am i putting too much hope on the line? It got me thinking last night, before i sleep. 'Are you the one? These butterflies in my stomach, it hasnt been felt as such for a long time. I really cant forget about you, your face appears in my mind 24/7 and i really wanna meet you now, cause i miss you already :(
glitter in the air
Yes i felt a lover with just my hands, yes i've hated myself for staring at the phone, yes i've been touched so gently till i want to cry, yes i want to invite a stranger to come inside. I hope you'll call me sugar one day.
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[January 19, 2010] |
oh gosh, when are you gonna ever grow up?! dont be so immature please, ugh enough of you already.
on a lighter note, you, yes you, thank you for making my day, everyday :)
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[January 17, 2010] |
i know you'll come across this post, and yeah it's for you.
Yes we only knew each other for such a short period of time, but my feelings for you have truly grown ever since the day we met. Each time i'll think of you, look in my phone, 'damn no new messages'. Am i fool? Why have i fallen for you that fast? But i know the feeling is sincere, ever since my first.
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[January 16, 2010] |
You're not seeing this the same way as i do, what can i do now?
FML that's all i can say now. Im tired of living the day as if nothing happened.
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| play on |
[January 14, 2010] |
darling look at me, im falling like a fool for you
I don't know what it is that makes me fall like this
First time in your arms I knew
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| awesome 19th (: |
[January 03, 2010] |
AWESOME 18th BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION, Timbre@Old School (:
thank you guys so much! <3
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| awesome~ |
[January 03, 2010] |
A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU, Yu'en, Fiona, Grace, Felicia, Basia, Emma, Jovy, Julianne, Sze-Ern, Amanda, Adaleen, Deon, Dominic, Moses & Sheryl!
YOU'VE REALLY MADE ME A HAPPY BOY (despite the fact that it's not actually my birthday yet and im not turning 19 for goodness sake, the workers there totally didnt buy it haha)
What more can i ask for right? Great place (up on a hill), awesome food and all of my close friends coming together.
It was truly amazing, how i knew something was fishy and amiss. but nonetheless, was really surprised!
I FEEL TRULY BLESSED :D <3 all of you guyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys!
Much love,
Fahmi the HappyBoy! :)
P.S And i made friends with Sylvia Ratonel today, hehheh she's so nice im so so shy now :P
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| last day of 2009 ~~~ |
[December 31, 2009] |
31/12/2010 - Last Day of 2009 (omg time seriously pass us by that fast)
So much have been gained and loss
There are so many wonderful things that i dont want to forget
But there is just as much as i dont ever wanna know, like how i lost *
I know everything happens for a reason, i believe in that.
And one door closes and another one opens.
Im gonna miss 2009, and am looking forward to 2010, to a new life & a new beginning, 18th year of existance :)
Have a blessed new year ahead my friends! :)
( Visuals of 2009 )
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| Okay the story goes like this, |
[December 23, 2009] |
Today, my sis-in-law and myself went to accompany my brother to SHSS to register(YES SEC1, they grow up so fast )
bumped into some of my brother's girl friends.
Conversation 1
girl1 : Who's the guy and girl with you? damn handsome
brother : my brother and sis-in-law
girl1 : how old is he?
brother: 2 weeks' time turning 18
girl1 : WAHHHHH so young married already ahhhh?
HAHAHAHAHA
Conversation 2
same situation as above except she said this,
girl 2 : So sad he's married already, lol
for goodness sake, im not married, she's also MY sister-in-law.
HAHAHAHAHHAAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA i cant stop laughing, flattered (yeah but sec 1-to-be girls) HAHAHA!
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| (im doing this out of boredom before i go & pee) |
[December 23, 2009] |
OKAY the clock has striked 12am and in exactly 2 weeks time ....... I'LL BE 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait, im so bored of this 'neither here nor there' age.
Im not going ask for much but come on, who doesnt have a birthday wish list right? i know everyone wants something :P
( ♥ )
see ya!
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[December 22, 2009] |
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We will be conducting a recruitment exercise for Flight Stewardess/ Steward in Singapore. If you meet the following standards, we will be pleased to meet you at our walk-in interview. - Singapore or Malaysian citizenship (yes)
- Females who are at least 1.58m; Males who are at least 1.65m in height (IM FINALLY 1.68m k)
- Degree/ Diploma (in the process) OR
- At least 2 GCE ‘A’-level credits and 2 ‘AO’-level credits including General Paper in the GCE ‘A’-level examination OR
- At least 5 GCE ‘O’-level credits including English and working experience (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS)
- For Malaysian qualifications at SPM level, at least 5 credits including a minimum grade of B4 in English and working experience is required
- Completed, are exempted from, or are not liable for National Service. Those in the process of completing NS may also apply. (UGH what a douche)
Our comprehensive 4 months training program will cover topics such as: - Product Knowledge including Food & Beverage
- Service Procedures
- Passenger Handling
- Deportment & Grooming
- Language & Communication Skills
- Safety Equipment Procedures
- First Aid
On successful completion of training you will commence flying duties.
I WONDER WHY IM SO EAGER TO TRAVEL. Haha such an exciting career to look forward to :)
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[December 15, 2009] |
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I miss KL already :(
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[November 24, 2009] |
My heart sank again, im just too weak for this.
Seeing you together with him, it is all just too painful.
Goodbye world. I can no longer put on a facade anymore.
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